Well folks…it’s been a while so lets get started.

I usually write about business things or ways to survive in the workplace…optimism or social media, but not today…

It’s personal today.

Last Saturday, I made the biggest mistake of my life to date. I practically pushed the man I love out the door. I attacked him verbally, emotionally, and probably even mentally. I tapped into my own securities, formed them into a  machete and chopped away him. I broke him down so low…. all out of anger.

Now let me start by saying that he has his shortcomings, but what he brings to the table is so much more. I let a family member put a bug in my ear about what he should be doing and listened. All the while, this family member had no idea of all the valuable things he was doing in my life, like:

• He helped me realize my passion for writing
• Loved spending time with my children and teaching them new things
• Always tried to get me to see things from a different perspective, and
• Brought a sense of sunlight to my dark situations…to name a few

And now that the damage is done, he’s not even sure that he wants me back, and I almost cant blame him. A lot things were said and done that night…I wish I could take it all back, but I can’t…..

We’re in some sort of weird limbo like seperation right now. The anxiety of not knowing if he’ll ever come around again is killing me.

A part of me wishes that he would just release me and put me out of my misery, but another huge part wants him to realize that I’m not perfect, never will be, but will try my damndest to do what I have to do to get him back.

I cannot express the amount of regret I have. I will not repeat the words or actions of that night as some things should be left a private matter, but I can say this…. it had absolutely nothing to do with cheating.

It had everything to do with my anger and not speaking my mind and letting things get bottled up, but mostly….my anger.

I encourage anyone who has a problem with their anger to go seek help…I am.

I may have lost my boyfriend, but in the end I will have learned a valuable lesson about myself and got help to fix the things that have allowed my life to absolutely crumble.

With Valentines Day right around the corner, I encourage everyone who has that special someone to hug them and hold them TODAY. Don’t wait until V Day. Show them today that you love them. Let them know their worth. If they aren’t perfect….so what….no one is.

In a world of destruction and hate, you need that blanket of love that only they can give to ease your mind. Don’t screw it up.

I can only hope that my ex will take me back…Wow…feels so weird saying that word (ex) and referring to him.
I pray that he will take me back and we work through this mess together.

Til later….

Kirsten

I’ve been having a super horrible time with my piece o’ s*@! car.

A week or so ago it broke down and cost about $1100 to fix. Less than a week later it’s broken AGAIN…this time I’m guessing it’s the alternator. Needless to say…time for a new car.

So I borrow my sister’s car for about a week….midway through the week, one morning as I’m walking to the car, I look around…. it’s gone!!!!

OMG my friggin apartment complex towed it because I didn’t have the appropriate permit on it! So now, I have no ride to work. Day 2 of missing work — (the day prior my nanny was in the hospital due to heart problems)

I call the tow company to get the car out, they tell me the registered owner needs to pick up the car… I’m at my wits end at this point.

ARRRRGGHHHH!!!!

The story gets worse, but in the end things worked out as best they could.

Confession:  I was not always cool during this whole nasty ordeal. 

It’s hard to remain focused when you’re in the midst. You feel like no one understands you. They try to talk to you, but you don’t want to hear words of wisdom because you are looking for SOLUTIONS.

I admit I fight with this often….I’m solution-oriented.  If something breaks, I get upset and I’m only concerned about “how can I fix this…and fast”.

But in reality…sometimes you have to “smell the roses” in the midst of your crisis. It’s when you relax that you allow yourself to think a little clearer, but the key is: RELAX.

How much more are you getting accomplished by worrying?  Hell you may be adding to your demise.

Have you started a new job lately? Or paid attention to the dynamic of the one you are currently with?

It’s very important that if you haven’t been observing that you open your eyes…now!

It’s always good to know who’s kissing who’s ass and for what reason, who’s working hard, who’s hardly working, and how this will all affect you.

If you are like me, then you want to just do what you came to do and let your work speak for yourself, right? But trust me, others around you may feel threatened by you and you may not even know it.

There is always a certain level of conspiring going on around you. You must pay attention!!

When people aren’t doing their jobs properly and a new person shows up on the scene, they feel threatened and here’s how you can tell:

1. The vibe stinks. Ever notice that the room gets quiet when you enter? I talk about energy all the time. You will know something is up when the energy just feels all wrong; things will just feel weird and out of place. 
   Counterattack: (1) Create a pleasant environment in your personal space; (2) Turn on some “feel-good” music, log-in to your Facebook, MySpace, etc and chat with a few of your friends; and/or (3) SMILE. Number three is especially important because it lets them know that they have not gotten to you.
2. Nothing you do is ever good enough. You can try your damndest to follow what you thought was protocol, but they will always find something wrong with it. **Note** This does not always come in the form of a frown…it is usually packaged with a SMILE (see they know how to use it, too).
   Counterattack: (1) don’t let them see you sweat; (2) remember that it is always someone higher than them; (3) your work will speak for itself; and (4) SMILE
3. They form a pack. Most of the time they won’t act alone. Intimidation usually makes you feel low, so the natural reaction is to cling to someone who’s horn they can toot. It’s usually someone on the same level, but they prefer a higher up. It makes them feel as though they have some sort of leverage over you.
   Counterattack: (1) LAUGH. This is extremely stupid behavior; (2) You are aware of the dynamic between them and the other person, so now you have the upperhand; and (3) form your own alliance; be sure to pick strong “players” and be strategic.

If you aren’t sure what the dynamic is…be observant and take notes because yes this is war! It’s either they are going to attempt (and possibly succeed) at smearing your name and causing a ruckus in YOUR life, or you recognize game, outstrategize, and come out on top (with seemingly clean hands )

Successfully Driven,

K. Green

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Enjoy!!

Successfully driven,

K. Green

If it was only that simple.

I can go to Google right now, type in “how to make money”, press enter, and thousands of results will pop up. Thousands upon millions of people are making an attempt to show you (or get you to pay for) ways you can “make money fast” or “make money easy“.

I honestly don’t believe there is a fast or easy way…in the beginning.
I believe that the fast and easy come AFTER you’ve laid the groundwork and put work in.

I also think the key is to do what you love, then the grind doesn’t seem AS hard. **Notice I said AS hard, you will still work your butts off, folks!** There is “no lime [light] without the grind”…remember that.

Online revenue is in the BILLIONS!!! So can you earn money? YES! Is there a slice for you? YES.. but… you must find YOUR niche. When I find mine, will I tell you? NO!

LOL

I’m just being honest. I have to perfect my craft and make crap tons of cash from it.  When I’m ready to retire, I may be generous and give it all away…who knows. **wink** I believe in giving back WITHOUT giving away the cow. I believe that you should grind and create a concrete system that works for YOU. The system that I develop may not be what you need.

What I can tell you is this:

1. Do something you love;
2. Work hard on it;
3. DEVOTE YOUR TIME TO IT… this will not be a hobby, but something you are passionate about pursuing and giving your all to;
4. Be the best;
5. Cultivate;
6. Watch the growth; and most importantly
7. DON’T GIVE UP!

These steps will help you build a healthy, strong foundation in order to begin to earn money on the internet.

Stay focused!

Successfully driven,

K. Green